Friday, July 04, 2008 . 23:21
Feelings that was hidden deep now resurface to haunt. I can't possible fool myself any longer. As much as I yearn to break free from this self-devouring cycle, I am actually not covering any grounds at all. Maybe it's just the time of the year again. The 196 day of the year is coming closer. The date that hold too much of my mystery and my pain.
This is the date that I would like to rejoice in and yet collapse into emotions overhaul.
Every single moment, I really would like to confess; to me you are perfect. I can't just do that. It will just spoil everything that I had been carefully protecting. I look like I don't bother, I don't even want to speak about. But the truth I know, I am not ready for anything.
Does it take someone else to set me free from this mental encasement? Someone to steal the ideal from me?
There seems to be a barrier that somehow unbreakable. Is it the past? Or does the future had something intricate install for us?
Personally I would like to take the past as memories, the future as an adventure but the present as a gift.
Would you like to be part of it?
I am still me. If I had change, I wonder to what extend will that be?
Still a dreamer that floats in my world of fantasy. Aimless and naive. Would circumstances force me to be take things the other way round? Do I really have to do it and cause some unpleasantness? Yet I will give it a pass. I ain't cut out for it.
Still a jewel?
