Saturday, January 26, 2008 . 20:18
I saw her today. Her hand was in his arm. They were smiling and having fun.
I was JEalous !!! I had to force a smile and say hi. Wow.... how long have it been since i felt this way. It's good i guess. I still have a heart that can feet emotions. haha
How stupid am i to let the feeling bring me down. I am just a friend right. ahaha
Breakfast at Ikea was wonderful, Lunch at Seafood Harvest is filling but dinner at home by mummy is still outstandingly delicious.
Been two days and i had spent 80 over bucks on food. My tummy is getting round. wahaha. I will try to cut down on my diet.
I miss my sliver lining,
Where is it ?
Thought i would get to see her today.
I was JEalous !!! I had to force a smile and say hi. Wow.... how long have it been since i felt this way. It's good i guess. I still have a heart that can feet emotions. haha
How stupid am i to let the feeling bring me down. I am just a friend right. ahaha
Breakfast at Ikea was wonderful, Lunch at Seafood Harvest is filling but dinner at home by mummy is still outstandingly delicious.
Been two days and i had spent 80 over bucks on food. My tummy is getting round. wahaha. I will try to cut down on my diet.
I miss my sliver lining,
Where is it ?
Thought i would get to see her today.
Friday, January 25, 2008 . 21:31
The lump around my stomach is getting softer by the day, it's forming, it's evolving and it's terrifying.
What am i to do!!
It had been a rather slack week for me. Going through the daily routine of lectures and fighting the all mighty Zzzzz monster. hee.. However I guess i had benefited from the course. I had learn and experience much.
Temper boils, temper flares, temper overrun, temper destroy and temper have a limit.
Hadn't been good in dealing with it this week, what is going on? It just snap and i am gone into the temper mood. oh no!!
Emotions kill us all, emo creatures are just what mens are. We dwell on the past and it's eating us alive bit by bit and we can't fight it off. This toxic poison is here to stay. Can we move on or can we just stay there being such a pitiful soul. Yet I am fighting it day by day. When will it ever be my turn to get my cure? What is the cure for it again? New love? or a new agenda in mind?
Had had been trying to get rid of this old mentally, i really have to break free from the fear that cripples me to desire for someone new. I have been so passive all this while waiting for the one to appear. Should i go or should i stay?
Guitar is beautiful, Singing is crap!! I can't sing. I croak. Learn 3! 3333333 new songs this week. Can't sing them but i can play them.
Where is my silver lining,
Been thinking about it,
is it real or fake?
What am i to do!!
It had been a rather slack week for me. Going through the daily routine of lectures and fighting the all mighty Zzzzz monster. hee.. However I guess i had benefited from the course. I had learn and experience much.
Temper boils, temper flares, temper overrun, temper destroy and temper have a limit.
Hadn't been good in dealing with it this week, what is going on? It just snap and i am gone into the temper mood. oh no!!
Emotions kill us all, emo creatures are just what mens are. We dwell on the past and it's eating us alive bit by bit and we can't fight it off. This toxic poison is here to stay. Can we move on or can we just stay there being such a pitiful soul. Yet I am fighting it day by day. When will it ever be my turn to get my cure? What is the cure for it again? New love? or a new agenda in mind?
Had had been trying to get rid of this old mentally, i really have to break free from the fear that cripples me to desire for someone new. I have been so passive all this while waiting for the one to appear. Should i go or should i stay?
Guitar is beautiful, Singing is crap!! I can't sing. I croak. Learn 3! 3333333 new songs this week. Can't sing them but i can play them.
Where is my silver lining,
Been thinking about it,
is it real or fake?
Sunday, January 20, 2008 . 18:45
It's have been ages since i last blog!! woohooo...ow Life is great and i am loving it. Enjoy life while you still can. Sometimes in awhile i would like to write a letter to myself.
Dear Julian,
How have you been? Is life alright in the police? Bet you are having so much fun and growing fat at the same time. I know it's great to meet new people and have a change of environment. Getting adapt to it is really hard. Strive on!
You are just like a modern man trying to get back to the oldies. Old man and new man? Julian it's time to be more conscious about your actions and words. Why be such a great mystery in a simpleton skin. You always seem shallow yet deep. Are you what you are ? What a mystery!
You know you know there will always come someone that can piece you out like a puzzle. Will you open up your heart to see if that person is around.
You always tend to live life to the mildness possible, not wanting to club and do all the crazy stuff. It's good. You seems to be more a mild child wanting to envelope himself in arts and beauty. Well done dude! Cultivate yourself even more.
Take care of your health and do create more fusion dishes. Even no one likes it, i will still like it all. Think more about yourself before you think about others. Please yourself before you please others. Julian you are great great great. The plan of going to aust is excellent. I really hope to see you there. All the best Julian!
Love,
Julian
Charmed by the sliver lining of hers,
She got me stone,
with just all that!