Saturday, February 23, 2008 . 22:12
Love is a song. It's the melody that attracted us together yet it's the word that let us understand another much more.
Been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, thinking i will be needing them some day.
All i wanna do is just to get a way back into love.
I need inspiration not just another negotiation. I am hoping you can show me what to do to start again.
Spending much thoughts in this matter really kill my brain cells badly. It's hardly worth anything but some fond old memories. Let's go on to a new voyage... uplifted feelings mixed with anxiety.
Love is to shoe laces,
unable to bear the weight alone,
often getting caught up in knots
hitherto we look beautiful together.
Been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, thinking i will be needing them some day.
All i wanna do is just to get a way back into love.
I need inspiration not just another negotiation. I am hoping you can show me what to do to start again.
Spending much thoughts in this matter really kill my brain cells badly. It's hardly worth anything but some fond old memories. Let's go on to a new voyage... uplifted feelings mixed with anxiety.
Love is to shoe laces,
unable to bear the weight alone,
often getting caught up in knots
hitherto we look beautiful together.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 . 22:25
Clear out my cupboard, threw away more than a dozen of old clothes yet it's still so full!!
I wanna get more shoes ! haha.... shoes are goody good. I wish i can have a new new wardrobe. Where i can compartmentalize all my stuff. hmmm... soon i hope.
I wanna get more shoes ! haha.... shoes are goody good. I wish i can have a new new wardrobe. Where i can compartmentalize all my stuff. hmmm... soon i hope.
I love 向日葵 !
I am bored.
Wishing to go camping by the riverside.
I would like to wear my white robe and do research again. awww... i miss those days of studying.
I am bored.
Wishing to go camping by the riverside.
I would like to wear my white robe and do research again. awww... i miss those days of studying.
Monday, February 18, 2008 . 20:13
oh my what should i do?
A sudden fickle accompany by the symphony of the mis leaded words turned disastrous. Regaining the former is impossible yet outshining is a much easier task. It's the made past that form us not the uncharted future.
Why rush against the flow, why dance in the rain? Trust your instinct and follow through. All will turn out well.
Smile is a simple word,
Smiling is a simple action,
Bringing a smile is a uphill task.
A sudden fickle accompany by the symphony of the mis leaded words turned disastrous. Regaining the former is impossible yet outshining is a much easier task. It's the made past that form us not the uncharted future.
Why rush against the flow, why dance in the rain? Trust your instinct and follow through. All will turn out well.
Smile is a simple word,
Smiling is a simple action,
Bringing a smile is a uphill task.
Sunday, February 17, 2008 . 20:46
Welcome to my world, won't you just step in ? Loving you is easy, cause you are beautiful. When you are sadden by the things around you, i can only say smile.When you are sad, i will be sad.
When you cry, i will cry.
When you smile, i will smile.
When you are happy, i will be happy.
When you are hungry, i will cook for you. hee
When you cry, i will cry.
When you smile, i will smile.
When you are happy, i will be happy.
When you are hungry, i will cook for you. hee
Have you came back recently? You felt like the weather or the climate in me. Guess it have affected me much. Like the weather like the clouds, like the winds and like the sun. Just like the weather today, it's so cloudy and windy. It either make my day or clear it all off.
When will the sun be back ?
All the time i am,
Learning to do,
Consideration.
When will the sun be back ?
All the time i am,
Learning to do,
Consideration.
Thursday, February 14, 2008 . 20:22
Well well.. what would i say ?
No comments.
I sign up for grade 1 piano. ha..... joining those young kids.
No comments.
I sign up for grade 1 piano. ha..... joining those young kids.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008 . 20:08
Looking back at all the things i have been through. I tried very hard and gave my best. All this while i have been pursuing with my heart and soul. Just hoping to find the right one. Is it that hard? I have been waiting and waiting. It just tired me out. Why can't i just get the love i want? Having so much in my heart to pour for that special one person yet it come to nothing in the end. Am i that bad or what ? Am i gay ? Am i too feminine? Oh goshhh... i don't want all this. Reaching for the top alone is useless.. All these joy, all these pain and yet who can i share them with ? People around me are getting attached. I feel useless. My words carries no strength, my actions are flawed while my life is empty. I believe i don't deserve to fall in love. There is a feeling in my heart, an itch, a silent whisper. Feeling so raw like it have always been. I just want something simple. I want to be a househusband to give them my all. I want to provide. But the whisper said : " You don't deserve it all. " I feel ugly! Yucks ! Julian. sigh!
Tired, dead beat! exhausted ! Eyes are shutting... argghghghghgh
Thy mind filled with vivid pictures of the elegance of hers. Absolutely charmed by the silver lining, addicted to the carefree less. It felt like grasping for the wind, which can't be held in my warm palms. Mind swirl in thy solitary thoughts. Unsureness,doubt with uneasiness.
Can i have one ?
Thy mind filled with vivid pictures of the elegance of hers. Absolutely charmed by the silver lining, addicted to the carefree less. It felt like grasping for the wind, which can't be held in my warm palms. Mind swirl in thy solitary thoughts. Unsureness,doubt with uneasiness.
Can i have one ?
Monday, February 11, 2008 . 19:21
I haven't been feeling well for the past few days. hmmmmm... ate too much or otherwise ?
Today being the first day of my attachment and i was so tired and slack !! How can i carry on a life like this.
My mind is just of full of thoughts and ideas. But what are ideas when they can't be put into action. I longed for a romantic courtship and a loving relationship. It always been a dream and a target i am working towards. I believe i can do better than before, why can't i just find a chance?
Too caught up? Disillusion? Fear?
I have one chance but do i dare ? Stupid Julian.
I think i have fallen.
Today being the first day of my attachment and i was so tired and slack !! How can i carry on a life like this.
My mind is just of full of thoughts and ideas. But what are ideas when they can't be put into action. I longed for a romantic courtship and a loving relationship. It always been a dream and a target i am working towards. I believe i can do better than before, why can't i just find a chance?
Too caught up? Disillusion? Fear?
I have one chance but do i dare ? Stupid Julian.
I think i have fallen.
Friday, February 08, 2008 . 23:18
Here it go again. The same old feeling of waiting and knowing how it would be. Is it that hard for me? Just me?
Been wondering, i assume that i am in such a rush. I should wait patiently right now. Thinking of all the things that is in my life, i believe good things come to those who worked for it and waited patiently.
Too tired to think, too lazy to type.
Everything will be fine!
Been wondering, i assume that i am in such a rush. I should wait patiently right now. Thinking of all the things that is in my life, i believe good things come to those who worked for it and waited patiently.
Too tired to think, too lazy to type.
Everything will be fine!
Thursday, February 07, 2008 . 23:21
The day the kids love most !!! Ang baos. For the older ones are just gathering. I just realise how old am i !! Oh Gosh !!
I am so gonna cook breakfast tomorrow. I miss cooking! Have just learn that our mood affects our cooking. Chefs are people who are creative. I wanna cook good food: delicious food that is pretty and neat !! I would like to see people enjoying and smiling while they eat.
Food for my love,
Taste that give happiness,
Just for who ?
again ?
I am so gonna cook breakfast tomorrow. I miss cooking! Have just learn that our mood affects our cooking. Chefs are people who are creative. I wanna cook good food: delicious food that is pretty and neat !! I would like to see people enjoying and smiling while they eat.
Food for my love,
Taste that give happiness,
Just for who ?
again ?
Happy Lunar New Year.. And a lame Ashley greeted me hohohoho... merry christmas!!
waahaha. I am still waiting for my family to get all ready.
The fireworks last night at chinatown was beautiful, stunning i would say. Too bad i was the single guy there. hahaha... Bump into Mr Yong Chee Kheng with his pauline, that bugger !!
Let's get fat from now on... haha... hong bao ar !!
When can i have my sunflower? Chocolates will do too.
waahaha. I am still waiting for my family to get all ready.
The fireworks last night at chinatown was beautiful, stunning i would say. Too bad i was the single guy there. hahaha... Bump into Mr Yong Chee Kheng with his pauline, that bugger !!
Let's get fat from now on... haha... hong bao ar !!
When can i have my sunflower? Chocolates will do too.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 . 22:59
hohohohoho.. New year Eve.. Red packets.. heeehee
Getting mixed up isn't that good, getting my thoughts clear out is even worse. Oh, when can i get to know what is going on? Living here yet half the time i am in my own mental slumber. Encouragement goes a long way, yet the encourager needs its own form of encouragement too. Smile and frown differ just in a line.
Would you buy me a sunflower?
Getting mixed up isn't that good, getting my thoughts clear out is even worse. Oh, when can i get to know what is going on? Living here yet half the time i am in my own mental slumber. Encouragement goes a long way, yet the encourager needs its own form of encouragement too. Smile and frown differ just in a line.
Would you buy me a sunflower?
Sunday, February 03, 2008 . 15:02
a sleepy Sunday... It's a raining day again. A sad sad sad day.... Recently i came across a Chinese song called "晴天娃娃" from Jay Zhou's Secret movie. It's sound so much like me, but a cheery version. I dislike raining days. Get away!!! There is no one to comfort me on a raining day. Where are you my love one?
Summer love. is it the time for love again? I am searching and seeking. It's okay i guess. Take it slow boy.
Growing an affection is easy, maintaining that feeling is tough. It gave me the crazy courage to move on, placing me on a tow of stride. Averaging on all things isn't my choice.
Sliver lining is where i wanna be,
Give me a chance,
Thanks
Summer love. is it the time for love again? I am searching and seeking. It's okay i guess. Take it slow boy.
Growing an affection is easy, maintaining that feeling is tough. It gave me the crazy courage to move on, placing me on a tow of stride. Averaging on all things isn't my choice.
Sliver lining is where i wanna be,
Give me a chance,
Thanks
Saturday, February 02, 2008 . 23:57
It's been a very tiring week and day for me. All the necessary stuff!
Had quite a wonderful high tea at paragon today. Enjoyed the pizza,salad,coffee and ice cream. It's just keep adding on to my weight. Saw real beautiful artistic cakes. Wouldn't it be nice if you can savor it all. hee :) I love to eat. I won't denied it.
After high tea with wei jie and chris, we finally drove down to Vivo City. The paradose for shopping. Met up with my old boss. His business is getting better by the day. Brought a shoe. Yea!! I love sleak looking shoes.
Today's dinner was wowowowowoowow.... see that wow !!! I had poached salmon with cold water prawns, chocolate mousse, chicken wings, cheese cake, meat balls, garden salad and thai sauce chicken rice. Finally it's all from IKEA !!! Delicious !! Seriously overwhelming!! Must try! hee
Subtlety the desire in your heart crept towards you with actions. What would you do to overcome it or will you subject to it's awe. My heart leaps into ecstasy fill with passion, my mind numb with ideologies and practicalities. Ohhh ohhh my. A slow moving understanding is much more important than a urge of movement. A bond that last is worthy, not a bridge that just gap for the moment. Sliver lining! here i am, i am moving towards and climbing up all the odds.
Trust in all,
Give to all,
Love all,
Be that Sliver Lining!
Had quite a wonderful high tea at paragon today. Enjoyed the pizza,salad,coffee and ice cream. It's just keep adding on to my weight. Saw real beautiful artistic cakes. Wouldn't it be nice if you can savor it all. hee :) I love to eat. I won't denied it.
After high tea with wei jie and chris, we finally drove down to Vivo City. The paradose for shopping. Met up with my old boss. His business is getting better by the day. Brought a shoe. Yea!! I love sleak looking shoes.
Today's dinner was wowowowowoowow.... see that wow !!! I had poached salmon with cold water prawns, chocolate mousse, chicken wings, cheese cake, meat balls, garden salad and thai sauce chicken rice. Finally it's all from IKEA !!! Delicious !! Seriously overwhelming!! Must try! hee
Subtlety the desire in your heart crept towards you with actions. What would you do to overcome it or will you subject to it's awe. My heart leaps into ecstasy fill with passion, my mind numb with ideologies and practicalities. Ohhh ohhh my. A slow moving understanding is much more important than a urge of movement. A bond that last is worthy, not a bridge that just gap for the moment. Sliver lining! here i am, i am moving towards and climbing up all the odds.
Trust in all,
Give to all,
Love all,
Be that Sliver Lining!