Looking back at all the things i have been through. I tried very hard and gave my best. All this while i have been pursuing with my heart and soul. Just hoping to find the right one. Is it that hard? I have been waiting and waiting. It just tired me out. Why can't i just get the love i want? Having so much in my heart to pour for that special one person yet it come to nothing in the end. Am i that bad or what ? Am i gay ? Am i too feminine? Oh goshhh... i don't want all this. Reaching for the top alone is useless.. All these joy, all these pain and yet who can i share them with ? People around me are getting attached. I feel useless. My words carries no strength, my actions are flawed while my life is empty. I believe i don't deserve to fall in love. There is a feeling in my heart, an itch, a silent whisper. Feeling so raw like it have always been. I just want something simple. I want to be a househusband to give them my all. I want to provide. But the whisper said : " You don't deserve it all. "I feel ugly! Yucks !Julian. sigh!
About myself
Julien Francis Lee
Wishes
Sambuca
Gailliano
Jaegermeister
BlackBird Fly
Burberry Watch
Dunhill Wallet
Prada Shoe
Car License
18-200mm Nikon Lens
Young Werther Sorrows
Pride & Prejudic & Zombies
Flying to Taiwan
Ipod Dock
Apple Wireless Keyboard